Tiss

PK:
You have to cleanse your mind of this woman and your body of all the shit the doctors and you have been putting in it to mask your misery.   I was thinking about you yesterday as I was driving to Monmouth County (why is your phone number listed ?), and how incredibly GREAT you could be and feel if you would just STOP thinking about this woman ?  Have you maybe considered that she has done this to other men she has met on the internet ?  That perhaps you are the victim here not her ?

You should have called me back yesterday so I could have soapboxed you live (just kidding).

You will be okay.  Hang on, hang in there, climb up.  There are many people who care, I am certain of it.   Turn to your family for support, turn to your friends.  If I were there I would try to support you in any way I could, but I wonder, are you shutting out all of the people who want to help you and looking to the person who is causing you pain to support you?    It seems so logical, if only they loved you they would make everything better, but turning to her for that answer when she is the one causing the pain is completely convoluted thinking.  I speak from experience PK and I don't mean to be harsh, but it "ain't gonna happen".  

Look my friend, I hope I am not being too harsh. I am far from perfect and I have one issue in my life I have to let go of then I know I will be completely free, and I for some reason cannot seem to get to that place, but I know I will.   I am in no position to judge and I shouldnt, but it pains me to see someone, as I have said many times before, with the potential for unlimited joy be somired in misery, especially someone who I had a personal attachment albeit a strange one that I had at a distance.   Your issues run far deeper, but you will be HAPPY.