Thursday, January 12, 2006

Twisting in the wind

This is change. This is metamorphasis. This is shedding skin.

This is involuntary. This is frightening. This is a spirit-crushing turn of events.

I feel abandoned, alone, left to whither and fade into the vapor of memory. I feel taken advantage of. I feel the vast vacancy of loss. I feel a future of hope and smiles and eternal love sinking, suffering, gasping for breath, tossed off in a random blink of cemetary eyes.

I feel sabotaged. I feel grief. I miss her. I must not. I must forget her.

I deserve this.

I hate my alternatives.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I wish you would forgive yourself for whatever it is that you have done.  I wish you would brush this off and move on.  There is a whole great big world out there waiting for you.  And there is someone for you somewhere.  Sorry if I was pushy.  But now I"m worried about ya.  GBU, Shelly